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| (c) Sofia Olmedo |
The following morning I see a text from my mum, asking how it’s going. I don’t hide my conflicted views.
That day, I arrive later than planned at the conference for a session moderated by Maria-Teresa. I’m there to give her and Annetta – who is presenting – moral support. It’s another morning full of fascinating panels from which I can draw little benefit. If I had more Spanish, I’d have been spoilt for choice between sessions.
After the panel concludes, I strike up a conversation with one of the speakers, Tim, a North American scholar based in Argentina for a couple of decades. He’s very keen on my project and to show how much he knows about early 20th century British-Caribbean literature, although that’s not the focus of my study. He at least is well-informed enough to be familiar with the term ‘Windrush’. It’s these conversations during the breaks that have become most valuable. They are all the more important given I can’t participate in any of the Q&A sessions– a conference highlight for me in any other circumstance.
Even during the moments of fraternising, the fear of another dead-end conversation because of linguistic-limitations makes me more hesitant than usual to initiate banter. I already have a stand-offish side despite leaning strongly towards extroversion. This time however, it’s more a question of practical barriers than moodiness.
Not long before the lunch break, I slip out of a plenary and head to the train station. As has become almost indispensable on my travels, I’ve booked a place on a walking tour that afternoon. Outside, the sunny climes have returned. En route I get some measure of Madrid’s vast size, or at least where the university is in relation to the starting point of the tour in the city centre. It’s an estimated hour-plus commute.
Shortly after boarding, a rap duo sets up their speaker and treat the packed carriage to a freestyle. At least, it’s a treat and novelty for me as an outsider. It might not be so charming if I lived here.
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| (c) Marcelo Ortega |
I arrive at Sol station and tentatively make my way to the meeting point. The tour guide, Xavier is a good-looking and charismatic Spaniard. He has the effervescent personality for such a gig. I imagine he’s ideal company in this context but with that face, body, height and charm, he’s a heartbreaker in any other.
Xavier is raring to go, even when half the tour group don’t show up. Before we set off, I mention that I’m staying in Alcalá. Xavier explains that his graduation took place in the city. He warmly urges me to check out its rich history, informing me of local tours. I was ignorant, assuming all roads led to Madrid-proper. I learn from Xavier that Alcalá was once bigger and more significant than Madrid before the latter grew as a capital. Alcalá is a city, he says, whilst Madrid is technically a town. When I describe it as a suburb, Xavier warns that Alcaláns would not take kindly to that assignation.
His rapid and heavily-accented English can be hard to follow at times but his good-natured verbosity is infectious. The tour encompasses the Puerta del Sol and exploits of Carlos III, biscuit-making Carmelite nuns, the oldest operative restaurant in the world, Ratiño Perez - the rodent equivalent to the tooth fairy (with little decorated houses built into walls all over the city), the depravity of Franco and lots of info on the now waning but morbidly fascinating matador tradition. I never heard so much about bull-fighting, and surprise myself with how many questions I have. Xavier shares that the custom is increasingly stigmatised across Spain. I’m shocked to learn that matadors have died from being gored this side of the 21st century (although our guide grossly exaggerates how recently). The ones who perish are considered the best, Xavier explains, in his wry fashion.
Around the city, apart from the pesky ubiquitousness of Hallowe’en paraphernalia, Madrid is already kitted out for Christmas. Xavier explains the capital prepares early to best live up to its reputation of spectacular festive illumination.
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| Sol, Madrid (c) Alvaro Bernal |
The tour concludes in the shadow of the Palácio Real, a short-ish walk from the Debod Egyptian temple, donated to Madrid by the North African country for the city’s help sparing it from water damage on the building of a nearby dam. Bizarrely, I see a man wearing a T-shirt referencing Lewisham; the South-East London borough where I grew up and in which much of my (maternal) family still lives. Curious and excited, I try to discover the connection. It turns out, he doesn’t speak a word of English.
The sun starts to set over the lovely view from the temple grounds. I only wish I’d had time to do the tour earlier, so I could’ve seen more of Madrid. With a long train ride ahead, alas, I don’t have time to explore other parts, such as the ‘new’ city. Still, I can’t go back to Alcalá without sampling the famous squid sandwich or Boca de Calamari. I take the scenic route back to Sol station via the Almudena Cathedral. As I approach Sol, a delicious sandwich tucked under my arm, I see Palestinian flags blowing in the air. As I hasten over, I note it’s a hodgepodge rally for reproductive rights, the release of various prisoners of war, as well as solidarity with Palestine.
Back in Alcalá, I bump into conference colleagues on the way to dinner. Meanwhile, I still have the pesky matter of accommodation for my last night to sort out. Lucia gave me details for an English-speaking contact who works at another establishment. We speak on the phone, and she asks me to confirm my reservation by email. I duly send the message but there’s no response. It seems the incompetence and poor customer service has followed me from Belgium.
It’s fairly late by the time I return from central Madrid. Nonetheless, to avoid the risk of missing out on a reservation, I pop back out to book the room in person.
It’s an extremely frustrating exchange with the fellow on reception duty. He knows nothing of his colleague’s conversation with me. Neither can he trace the email, since she didn’t give me the main address. He’s monolingual with only smatterings of English. I don’t have anywhere near the Spanish I need to explain the misunderstanding. It’s an insight into how marginalised one can be when they don’t speak the dominant language (which is English, in many contexts).
The receptionist uses an app to translate my panicked explanation. This back and forth does nothing to allay my agitation.
It initially seems as if there’s no room at the inn. Seeing my distress, somehow he magics something up for the following night. Despite not having my passport on me, he registers what details I can provide. Since returning from Japan, I’m on a tight budget. Thank heavens, a timely insurance refund allows me the freedom to pay for lodgings on the spot. I don’t otherwise trust the hotel staff not to give my room away in the interim.
After such an upbeat day, the old ambivalence returns.
The following day is the last of the conference. As I tarry to get out of bed, I reflect on how the week hasn’t been as easy-going as I anticipated. It doesn’t help that I have to switch accommodations just for one night. I’m irritated at the thought of the unnecessary rush and inconvenience instigated by the residence manager's unprofessionalism. I never do receive a satisfactory explanation from him and am cautious about pushing for one.
During the morning tea break, I converse with some Afro-Brazilians I’ve met earlier in the week (grateful for the warmth and Portuguese practice). I later chat with Maurice and Nneka, a US-based Nigerian-Brit professor in Spanish Literature.
Hearing that my Spanish is all but non-existent, Nneka asks What are you doing here? I’m not offended. It's a good question.
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| (c) Alex Vasey |
We’re later joined by Mercy, a Ghanaian also specialising in Hispanophone studies. She and Nneka recount the good, bad and the ugly of living and studying in Spain during the late 80s/early 90s. Nneka is a fascinating character. Tall and deep-voiced, she reminds me of Maya Angelou. Nneka ditched dreams of becoming a model once-upon-a-time to move into academia. That made my dad happy, she says dryly. She learned most of her Spanish by immersion in Madrid, admitting that she didn’t realise that English wasn’t the main language when she arrived.
I learn quite a bit from her about the US higher education system, particularly the difference between public and private institutions. If there are state-run universities then why is there so much student debt? Federal money funds programmes and staff at public institutions, not subsidies for student fees, Nneka explains. During the closing plenary, I remark that I wish there was a back entrance through which I could sneak out. Nneka replies that in the US context, an extra exit is now an architectural requirement in response to school shootings.
Nneka and I snatch whispered conversations at the back of the auditorium. We discuss our complicated feelings about Afrodescendant-related studies being so dominated by Caucasian academics. No matter how well-intentioned, it often comes across as being born out of a (neocolonial) sense of entitlement and/or a desire to corner a niche. Nneka mentions that one of the speakers has suggested this won’t change until Black academics come out of predominantly white spaces and form their own. An academic Garveyism, one could say. I sympathise, yet contest that the contributions of non-white academics can be so easily delineated, as to suggest that academia ‘belongs’ to those of European descent.
The congress rounds up, almost an hour later than scheduled. We are herded together for a group photo. Some guests good-naturedly raise a chorus of the anti-Apartheid anthem, Nkosi Sikelel' iAfrika, as we gather. We subsequently disperse to our various destinations.
I greet one of the participants on the way to collect my luggage. He’s a little too enthusiastic with the bise and I wish I have the presence of mind to refuse. He invites me to join a few of the others for a late lunch. I’d like that very much but I’m in a hurry to check into my new hotel ahead of an online meeting. Lunch for me will be a couple of veggie Argentinian empanadas.
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| (c) Lucas Oriogun |
The streets are alive with activity. It will remain like this well into the night, thanks to the Spanish tendency to eat later in the evening. I appreciate it. The city is never dead.
For dinner, I had vague plans to reconnect with Maurice and other conference participants at the hotel. Too bad that our paths won't cross again before returning to our different corners of the world. Not being on WhatsApp and part of the conference chat group, I have no means of getting in touch with him.
It’s therefore a wistful solo stroll on my last night in Alcalá to a local restaurant for generous portions of seafood.












